I am exactly where I am supposed to be

 In the rush of western life,

i found an oasis in Cambodia,

A peace pond, full of happiness and joy,

And fresh air where you can breathe freedom.

I ate vegetarian food at Peace,

And then have delicious chicken cashews at Heaven, all wholesome initiatives.

Problems as catalyst to change,

i needed hurt you for you to listen, 

I wonder if 

is this how god operates? 

To keep you enjoying the now,

 to keep you following the universe and surrender to it, to not fight it nor force it, 

because that creates more negativity and pain. 

You are force to change to grow, 

To follow Rumi and Buddha beautiful lessons

There is a big gap between who i want to be and who i am, 

i need to let go of a lot to be Buddhist,

 the I am is not to reach nirvana, but just to be, in the now,

Because I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

This trip motto was “change of plans”, and in accepting what i can not change, I changed myself for the better.

You see the sparkle in my eyes

 Unexpected, like a magical adventure with a morpheos type

With no expectations and nowhere to go,

we shared moments of truth,

weird, deep, conecting, unusual, extremly special.

Your gorgeousness and kindness is one of a kind,

because is rare,

like a diamond in the progress to become shinner and perfect.

You look deep into my eyes, and saw me, the real me,

and you liked it so much, embracing who we are.

The peace

 It is a special type of peace, like a calming exhalation

what I felt when I realised that I found you,

as the love of my life, and my partner in crime forever.

The peace to know that the search is over, 

that you will welcome me with open arms

in a warm hug to embrace my failures and wins.

Outline

 My life started without an outline,

my family created one for me

like castles in the sky, far far out of reach...

My teen self painted rainbows over the outline

and made them bridges to connect to the castles,

creating a bright city.

The outline was on and off,

merging with others and mutating.

Love your enemies

 Twice today, right on my face, 

I was reminded of the deepest truth,

that you should love your enemies,

as the kindest people do.

Well, I am to have no enemies...

However, I had disagreements

with people, all over the world,

and some took it personally,

some good rejection as a knife to their heart

and probably they hate me.

I can not control how they feel.

I can only control how I feel 

and what I do about it,

and follow the advice

to love your enemies,

even if it wasn't you who labelled them that way.

I would rather die than hit someone,

I would rather die than hate you.

And love comes back

 When the healing is done,

and you are glowing again,

smiling like in the Eden,

you can see the strength you regained.

And love comes back again,

in an autumn breeze,

when the brown leaves are falling from the trees,

your power is coming back and flowing like a fountain.

Heaven and hell both live inside your eyes

 The crystal clear blue looks like an inviting calm ocean,

or a heaven that is full of sweet treats,

been the Poseidon of the full devotion,

but it, in reality, is a rough tide that strongly beats.

I could see your storms and your Turner- paintings looking landscapes,

and I choose to see heaven instead of hell,

got trapped and did not know how to escape,

because the ambivalence turned into a cell.