Trying to be in peace

 In the middle of a lot of hate speech, and people who don't care 

and fake sweet porcelain teeth smiles,

In the midst of disappointment and lazy people...

I am trying to be at peace.

It is sooo difficult,

The peace keeps falling from my hands like sand.

Deep breaths and focus, enjoying the now,

following thousands of years old wisdom...

trying to find my compass and my path.

Stratign to get frustrated at people who are pieces of shit, 

who are so narcissistic and self-centered

that makes me puke

Memories

 My mother used to say about me: you can’t give her beautiful things because she won’t take proper care of them…

Was she right? I think so 

I tend to buy cheap stuff because i now i can easily damage them,

Or break the whole thing due to my clumsiness.

I have the memory of this comment again and again. 

And it might turned into a self fulfilling prophecy