Over-water life

I overwatered my plants because I over care about things.
I over care sooo much that I kill things.
I killed succulents, such as Aloe vera because I cared too much.
I asked guests 20 times if they want coffee or tea... or more cookies, or more air...or anything,
I asked 10 times "How are you? do you need anything?" to my husband, when he is sick
and that bothers him.
I am sooo caring that I annoyed people
I look like I have the steering wheel,
but in reality, I don't
I am just following the wind
like a leaf, just moving around wherever the wind blows
but always moving

Happy first page of the year... be the author of your own story! best books 2018

Happy first page of the year... be the author of your own story, I hope you create a fantastic one!
I focused last year on reading good books (and surviving English humor, or the lack of it). I will be eternally grateful for the recommendations given in 2018 by fantastic friends!
These are the best books I read in 2018, from top to bah... Let me know if you would like a brief review of any or all!

1-The way of kings, books 1 and 2, Brandon Sanderson
2-Words of Radiance, book 1, Brandon Sanderson
3-The Pillars of the Earth Ken Follett
4-Factfulness, Hans Rosling
5-Origin. Dan Brown
6-We, the manifesto.Gillian Anderson
7-Sapiens Yuval Noah Harrari (re)
8-Homo deus Yuval (re)
9-The book thief, Markus Suzak (re-read)
10-The brain that changes itself, Norman Doidge
11-Mythos, Steven Fry
12-12 rules of life, Jordan Petterson
13-The secret life of trees, Peter Wohlleben
14-Mindfulness, Danny Penman
15-The white tiger, Aravind Adiga
16-Feminist fight club, Jessica Benett
17-Information is beautiful, David McCandless
18-What happened, Hillary Clinton
19-Prisoners of Geography: Ten Maps That Tell You Everything You Need To Know About Global Politics by Tim Marshall
20-Inferior, Angela Saini
21-Wool, Hugh Howey
22-The happiness project, Gretchen Ruben
23-God Reza Aslan
24-The artist way. Julia Cameron
25-How the west was lost Dambisa Moyo
26-The ministry of utmost happiness, Arundathi Roy
27-Bridge of clay, Markus Susak
28-A new Earth, Eckhart Tolle
29-Where good ideas come from, Steven Johnson
30-Shift, Hugh Howey
31-Designing your life, Bill Burnett
32-The only story, Julian Berns
33-Crossing the chasm, Geoffrey Moore
34-Where to drink coffee,

I don't believe in luck but I am lucky

Lucky
With a powerful and kind mother as a role model,
i can't feel less than lucky
even with a dead father and debts to hunt us
I had a very happy childhood
I was not aware of the challenges
I was in a happy bubble
full of toys and candy

I was taught that luck doesn't exist
that you forge your own path
not even a destiny
because destiny is linked with a predisposition
and there is only now and here
created by each one of us.

So I am grateful for the lack of luck

my ring

I like to play with my wedding band,
I do it all the time,
it helps to keep my hands occupy
in the weird event when I don't know what to do with them

I like my ring, and it is good i do
because I can't take it out...
and I don't mean because it means a lot for me
or because it is a promised and a love bon
literally, i can't take it out with out destroying it
or cutting my finger...

I have very very very small fingers,
somebody told me I had princess hands
I will say I have mini hands to be polite with myself


The ring has am interesting story
Indeed the engagement ring had to be returned to the jewelry store
because it was too big and they didn't have a smaller size...
furthermore, when my back then boyfriend proposed,
my answer was: I would say YES if the rings fits...
well, spoiler alert: it didn't
but i married him anyways.

In order to don't step on the stone twice,
or to buy the wrong ring size twice,
he proposed to make our ow rings!
we went to a fun DYS workshop
and in 3 hours we lear how to make rings
and hammer them... real hard
well, i was sooo afraid that mine would turn out
to be too big again,
that I didn't hammer enough and voila
the ring when in and never came out...

We can all do a handstand

fear has always dragged me down,
fear of highs,
fear of speed,
fear of danger,
fear to the unknown.

But my friends have been helping to move on,
to face the fears,
specially my strong Boricua doctor,
who took my hand and guide trough the magic mountain
who push me into a roller-coaster of fun...
who took me into a sling shoot to reach the sky
who allowed me to face my fears.


I am still fighting my fears,
in tricks and aerials,
my partner and friends support me,
and the support and sometimes push really makes go ahead,
although I will never get into a space ship and/or roller-coaster again
I am happy I did.

Now, I facing the upside down conundrum,
I am scared of hand stands,
don't laugh, it is pretty serious...
well, for me it is,
so go ahead and grim all you want.

My partner helped me step by step
to get my arms in a triangle,
to trust my core and my elbows,
to keep my balance
and shoot my legs up in the air,
to rush the blood into my head,
to learn that,
even if I was sure I was not able to do a hands stand,
with help and support,
we can all do a handstand


Also "danger is real,
fear is mental"
(Will Smith)

I don't have a free hand to hold a rubber duck

I don't have a free hand to hold a rubber duck,
when you are full, and they offer you more,
you just need to say now,
or you can just all go and get the new toy.

I prefer to keep my coffee and my croissant,
than taking your rubber duck.
it is FOMO at the extreme and then depression,
the best solution is to enjoy the now and what you have,
not compare with other and di your best
being grateful for your luck and your bad luck.

Habits

Every time we have a live changing event
we set up new habits,
We try very hard to stick to the good ones,
healthy habits should be easy to keep.

Then we got used to this "new" live
and then new habits will kick in
the unhealthy but fun ones
who took over the ones that we initially set up

It is like a feedback circle
of not following the habit that we know will be good for us
for the ones that are shinny and fun.