One nail drives out another... not

 Sometimes the nail that drives out another strategy

just blows on your face,

very very hard

it takes you back in flashbacks

it leaves you empty

and lost.

Seeking refuge in other arms,

attempting to create passion with a new lover,

just drives back the memories of the amazing love you had lost.

Comparing hurts, memories break your hurt,

flashbacks leave you crying non stop

like a punch on your stomach that takes your breath away.

It was a bad idea, you knew it,

it was just a waste of time,

to feel some connection...

but the nail didn't drive out another,

it pushed it harder inside the wood,

the wood of your coffin.

Wyd

 Have you ever felt like you are on the companion seat

In the car of your life?

Like Loki took over the staring wheel

And he is running the mad race?

It kind of feels like that when you let the universe guide you

To let things pass through you

It gives you peace but also a sense of absolute loss of control 

You want to apply a positive mindset 

And the law of attraction 

And sometimes it works

Life gives you amazing opportunities 

Events and people

And then it takes it away

You feel you can’t trust anymore

But those feelings are empty and lonely

How to solve this puzzle?

Just thinking that nothing is personal,

Especially when you look at the road and see all these self-driven cars with just grey passengers depressed and anxious going down the rabbit hole

Wyd? I don’t really know

I am just enjoying each moment, each person, each experience because the now is the only thing that exists and will end anytime 

Being with you is a learning experience

 At this age, I thought I was done learning,

but you proved me wrong,

and you guide me to keep learning,

to keep on going.

You are teaching me patience,

my limits and silly expectations,

how to deal with new experiences,

even if there are frustrating situations.

Because the reward is sharing time with you,

because there is no goal but just an enjoyable journey,

walking hand in hand, skipping with you

like teenagers again, all happy and shinny.

Compromise and care

 From a very young age, 

women are thought to be caring and compromise

women are the ones who should cure wounds,

caress and bring back to life broken hurts and limbs.

Even if women get slapped on one cheek,

they tend to put the other side 

and power through the pain

in order to not hurt anyone else.

They force the smiles from the prefrontal cortex,

but they wish someone would make them smile

purely from the lymphatic system,

to feel real, natural and care for... and to stop the nonsense compromising.

Red flags

 Does he have any red flags? You asked...

Tons, I replied, he has a red banner yelling "danger",

and he laughed and we bonded.

We found similarities in experiences,

we enjoyed finding red flags

and hiding them under the sand,

hoping that the sea will go back to a relax state,

that the tide won't go insane again

and swallow us with all its intensity

We both saw the red flags,

we both ignored them,

and we both enjoyed the fresh water 

until the salty water took our breath away.

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Once I gave you the power

 A long time ago,

as a fairy tale started, I gave you the  power to make me happy,

by default, I also gave you the power to make me sad.

It was not your responsibility but it was your prerogative 

for me to feel free of guilt, to put the pressure on you

to let my own responsability go tentative,

Iit was nice to care for someone and have someone care for you...

However, the force is within me, nourish me and showing the path,

a path far from you and what my expectations were,

you can't make me happy, only I can,

you can't make me sad, only I can.

I thought you were controlling me,

 but it was me who gave you the remote control

and it was running out of batteries.