Past

What can you do?

For sure not controlling it,

the past is gone

and left its wounds, scars and smiles.

Free yourself from grief and regret

Free yourself from the past,

learning for it,

but moving forward.

Deepest blue, darkest moments

 Staring at the most beautiful view,

of turquoise waters mixing with white sand

in spirals of power,

I can't stop thinking about my mistakes.

The sadness that a happy place brings is not making me feel better,

I bring this sickness inside,

I am bringing the drama within.

Please clean me blue clean water,

please show me your clarity and purify my thoughts

Please awake the buddha in me.

Bad choices, great lessons

 Like attempting to run a marathon under 35 degrees of heat

you must see the silver lining in every cloud,

even in the huge grey ones that seem to never end.

That smile will come and shine new light,

to show you anew way,

for you to make bad choices again,

and have some fun.

When is this going to be over?

 Stop saying that it shall pass

it feels like one wave after the other

crashing the weak body against the rocks

Stop making me feel bad for being sad

I just want to know

When is this going to be over?

When will happiness last,

stay with and nourish me?

One nail drives out another... not

 Sometimes the nail that drives out another strategy

just blows on your face,

very very hard

it takes you back in flashbacks

it leaves you empty

and lost.

Seeking refuge in other arms,

attempting to create passion with a new lover,

just drives back the memories of the amazing love you had lost.

Comparing hurts, memories break your hurt,

flashbacks leave you crying non stop

like a punch on your stomach that takes your breath away.

It was a bad idea, you knew it,

it was just a waste of time,

to feel some connection...

but the nail didn't drive out another,

it pushed it harder inside the wood,

the wood of your coffin.

Wyd

 Have you ever felt like you are on the companion seat

In the car of your life?

Like Loki took over the staring wheel

And he is running the mad race?

It kind of feels like that when you let the universe guide you

To let things pass through you

It gives you peace but also a sense of absolute loss of control 

You want to apply a positive mindset 

And the law of attraction 

And sometimes it works

Life gives you amazing opportunities 

Events and people

And then it takes it away

You feel you can’t trust anymore

But those feelings are empty and lonely

How to solve this puzzle?

Just thinking that nothing is personal,

Especially when you look at the road and see all these self-driven cars with just grey passengers depressed and anxious going down the rabbit hole

Wyd? I don’t really know

I am just enjoying each moment, each person, each experience because the now is the only thing that exists and will end anytime 

Being with you is a learning experience

 At this age, I thought I was done learning,

but you proved me wrong,

and you guide me to keep learning,

to keep on going.

You are teaching me patience,

my limits and silly expectations,

how to deal with new experiences,

even if there are frustrating situations.

Because the reward is sharing time with you,

because there is no goal but just an enjoyable journey,

walking hand in hand, skipping with you

like teenagers again, all happy and shinny.