I am in an era in my life where everything seems all right,
I am healthy,
well, dancing a partner forced a wrong turn and damaged my shoulder,
it hurts like hell when I try to raise it up,
and in an unuseful attempt to do a split,
I tore up the tendons in the hamstring,
same pain as in the shoulder
Also, I am gaining weight very fast even eating healthy.
I guess I am just getting old.
However, I have a roof over my head,
well, we are renting a tiny flat in a far away zone,
and it is quite pricey, I would like to buy my own,
but the cost is too much
I guess it is just inflation
Nevermind, I have a loving family
well, most of them live far away,
and by far away I mean crossing the ocean and a continent.
They request thing for me anyways,
I guess I am just too picky
Furthermore, I have a loving partner,
well, sometimes we disagree and we get upset,
we have different views on life and priorities
I guess nobody is perfect
Moreover, I have lovely caring friends
well, again the life long ones
who know me to the bone are far far far away,
I guess I need to get used to missing them
Alright, I have a great job that has an impact on people's lives
well, that is a bit of an overstatement
and the salary is way lower than my former industry job
I guess I have to be grateful for I have and do.
Nevertheless, I live in a democratic country,
well, with a queen and representatives that I can't elect,
I can't even vote although I pay taxes here
I guess I have to accept the price of being an inmigrant
Finally, I guess I am ok, OK-ish
Thursday, March 21, 2019
Thursday, February 21, 2019
Forever immigrant
Forever Immigrant
I changed the city that never sleeps
for the city where I have to run to catch the last subway (aka tube).
I changed the small big apple for a huge old gigantic watermelon city
I am still on an island,
I am still near a gorgeous park and high modern buildings,
high rises and all gentrification follows me.
I thought my forever immigrant status won't change,
and then it changed, I choose to change it.
The Xmas lights are everywhere
and home can be wherever you decide to be.
Butterfly mind
we are travelers of life,
we are forever immigrants
because even if we were born in a piece of land,
or we bought it, it is not who we are,
and we don't really own it
21 Reasons why I am a forever immigrant...
I thought my forever immigrant status won't change,
and then it changed, I choose to change it.
My fight to be a permanent resident ended in on the city
just to start in the next one.
The outdoor dances can be found if you really look for them.
The hot summer days will arrive at some point,
climate change will make sure of that.
My melancholia for a city with more sun and fewer clouds
will pass fast like a summer storm
Kind people that connect with you,
and even more importantly, you can be your silly self around them,
can be found like beautiful bright flowers blooming on wild weed.
The Xmas lights are everywhere
and home can be wherever you decide to be.
Over-water life
I overwatered my plants because I over care about things.
I over care sooo much that I kill things.
I killed succulents, such as Aloe vera because I cared too much.
I asked guests 20 times if they want coffee or tea... or more cookies, or more air...or anything,
I asked 10 times "How are you? do you need anything?" to my husband, when he is sick
and that bothers him.
I am sooo caring that I annoyed people
I look like I have the steering wheel,
but in reality, I don't
I am just following the wind
like a leaf, just moving around wherever the wind blows
but always moving
I over care sooo much that I kill things.
I killed succulents, such as Aloe vera because I cared too much.
I asked guests 20 times if they want coffee or tea... or more cookies, or more air...or anything,
I asked 10 times "How are you? do you need anything?" to my husband, when he is sick
and that bothers him.
I am sooo caring that I annoyed people
I look like I have the steering wheel,
but in reality, I don't
I am just following the wind
like a leaf, just moving around wherever the wind blows
but always moving
Saturday, January 5, 2019
Happy first page of the year... be the author of your own story! best books 2018
Happy first page of the year... be the author of your own story, I hope you create a fantastic one!
I focused last year on reading good books (and surviving English humor, or the lack of it). I will be eternally grateful for the recommendations given in 2018 by fantastic friends!
These are the best books I read in 2018, from top to bah... Let me know if you would like a brief review of any or all!
1-The way of kings, books 1 and 2, Brandon Sanderson
2-Words of Radiance, book 1, Brandon Sanderson
3-The Pillars of the Earth Ken Follett
4-Factfulness, Hans Rosling
5-Origin. Dan Brown
6-We, the manifesto.Gillian Anderson
7-Sapiens Yuval Noah Harrari (re)
8-Homo deus Yuval (re)
9-The book thief, Markus Suzak (re-read)
10-The brain that changes itself, Norman Doidge
11-Mythos, Steven Fry
12-12 rules of life, Jordan Petterson
13-The secret life of trees, Peter Wohlleben
14-Mindfulness, Danny Penman
15-The white tiger, Aravind Adiga
16-Feminist fight club, Jessica Benett
17-Information is beautiful, David McCandless
18-What happened, Hillary Clinton
19-Prisoners of Geography: Ten Maps That Tell You Everything You Need To Know About Global Politics by Tim Marshall
20-Inferior, Angela Saini
21-Wool, Hugh Howey
22-The happiness project, Gretchen Ruben
23-God Reza Aslan
24-The artist way. Julia Cameron
25-How the west was lost Dambisa Moyo
26-The ministry of utmost happiness, Arundathi Roy
27-Bridge of clay, Markus Susak
28-A new Earth, Eckhart Tolle
29-Where good ideas come from, Steven Johnson
30-Shift, Hugh Howey
31-Designing your life, Bill Burnett
32-The only story, Julian Berns
33-Crossing the chasm, Geoffrey Moore
34-Where to drink coffee,
Friday, November 2, 2018
I don't believe in luck but I am lucky
Lucky
With a powerful and kind mother as a role model,
i can't feel less than lucky
even with a dead father and debts to hunt us
I had a very happy childhood
I was not aware of the challenges
I was in a happy bubble
full of toys and candy
I was taught that luck doesn't exist
that you forge your own path
not even a destiny
because destiny is linked with a predisposition
and there is only now and here
created by each one of us.
So I am grateful for the lack of luck
With a powerful and kind mother as a role model,
i can't feel less than lucky
even with a dead father and debts to hunt us
I had a very happy childhood
I was not aware of the challenges
I was in a happy bubble
full of toys and candy
I was taught that luck doesn't exist
that you forge your own path
not even a destiny
because destiny is linked with a predisposition
and there is only now and here
created by each one of us.
So I am grateful for the lack of luck
Thursday, August 30, 2018
my ring
I like to play with my wedding band,
I do it all the time,
it helps to keep my hands occupy
in the weird event when I don't know what to do with them
I like my ring, and it is good i do
because I can't take it out...
and I don't mean because it means a lot for me
or because it is a promised and a love bon
literally, i can't take it out with out destroying it
or cutting my finger...
I have very very very small fingers,
somebody told me I had princess hands
I will say I have mini hands to be polite with myself
The ring has am interesting story
Indeed the engagement ring had to be returned to the jewelry store
because it was too big and they didn't have a smaller size...
furthermore, when my back then boyfriend proposed,
my answer was: I would say YES if the rings fits...
well, spoiler alert: it didn't
but i married him anyways.
In order to don't step on the stone twice,
or to buy the wrong ring size twice,
he proposed to make our ow rings!
we went to a fun DYS workshop
and in 3 hours we lear how to make rings
and hammer them... real hard
well, i was sooo afraid that mine would turn out
to be too big again,
that I didn't hammer enough and voila
the ring when in and never came out...
I do it all the time,
it helps to keep my hands occupy
in the weird event when I don't know what to do with them
I like my ring, and it is good i do
because I can't take it out...
and I don't mean because it means a lot for me
or because it is a promised and a love bon
literally, i can't take it out with out destroying it
or cutting my finger...
I have very very very small fingers,
somebody told me I had princess hands
I will say I have mini hands to be polite with myself
The ring has am interesting story
Indeed the engagement ring had to be returned to the jewelry store
because it was too big and they didn't have a smaller size...
furthermore, when my back then boyfriend proposed,
my answer was: I would say YES if the rings fits...
well, spoiler alert: it didn't
but i married him anyways.
In order to don't step on the stone twice,
or to buy the wrong ring size twice,
he proposed to make our ow rings!
we went to a fun DYS workshop
and in 3 hours we lear how to make rings
and hammer them... real hard
well, i was sooo afraid that mine would turn out
to be too big again,
that I didn't hammer enough and voila
the ring when in and never came out...
Friday, July 27, 2018
We can all do a handstand
fear has always dragged me down,
fear of highs,
fear of speed,
fear of danger,
fear to the unknown.
But my friends have been helping to move on,
to face the fears,
specially my strong Boricua doctor,
who took my hand and guide trough the magic mountain
who push me into a roller-coaster of fun...
who took me into a sling shoot to reach the sky
who allowed me to face my fears.
I am still fighting my fears,
in tricks and aerials,
my partner and friends support me,
and the support and sometimes push really makes go ahead,
although I will never get into a space ship and/or roller-coaster again
I am happy I did.
Now, I facing the upside down conundrum,
I am scared of hand stands,
don't laugh, it is pretty serious...
well, for me it is,
so go ahead and grim all you want.
My partner helped me step by step
to get my arms in a triangle,
to trust my core and my elbows,
to keep my balance
and shoot my legs up in the air,
to rush the blood into my head,
to learn that,
even if I was sure I was not able to do a hands stand,
with help and support,
we can all do a handstand
Also "danger is real,
fear is mental"
(Will Smith)
fear of highs,
fear of speed,
fear of danger,
fear to the unknown.
But my friends have been helping to move on,
to face the fears,
specially my strong Boricua doctor,
who took my hand and guide trough the magic mountain
who push me into a roller-coaster of fun...
who took me into a sling shoot to reach the sky
who allowed me to face my fears.
I am still fighting my fears,
in tricks and aerials,
my partner and friends support me,
and the support and sometimes push really makes go ahead,
although I will never get into a space ship and/or roller-coaster again
I am happy I did.
Now, I facing the upside down conundrum,
I am scared of hand stands,
don't laugh, it is pretty serious...
well, for me it is,
so go ahead and grim all you want.
My partner helped me step by step
to get my arms in a triangle,
to trust my core and my elbows,
to keep my balance
and shoot my legs up in the air,
to rush the blood into my head,
to learn that,
even if I was sure I was not able to do a hands stand,
with help and support,
we can all do a handstand
Also "danger is real,
fear is mental"
(Will Smith)
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