This is a negative poem about being positive

 The shock of seeing two lines,

always followed by the eagerness to take a second test

to stay positive thinking it might be a false negative...

After 16 double lines, only one was single.

YAY for the efficiency of tests

and the evolution of science.

How to stay positive when all is negative,

your life will be destroyed from now on,

should you hide it?

no, you can't... too many people are involved

and will suffer the consequences,

but they might suffer even more if you share the news.

Meanwhile your mind is going down a rabbit hole

more and more messages showing support invade your world,

the missing phone calls number keeps adding,

the unread messages accumulate like sand after a sand storm.

This result is rain over flooded land,

you were already sick and in pain,

barely managing, and now more.

Why you? you have been the champion for being careful,

telling everybody to use protection,

not only to stay safe from the common viruses 

but for ALL the other diseases and problems you can get.

You were careful, always... well not always...

regrets for one night.

Now the ripple effect has started and you can't stop it,

so many people want to help in their own way,

even after you clearly communicated how they can help you.

Presents and roses arrive every day, more kind words, more I am here for you...

Your best friend asking you how are you gonna make this the best day so far?

Calma

 Con calma senorita,

repetis por segunda vez

la primera me llamaste bonita

tratando de hacerme sonreir, tal vez.

Respira profundo y disfruta esta segundo

Solo el ahora existe y es un presente

un regalo de los dos disfrutando el mundo

juntos en este presente.

El ahora en el que los dos escuchamos la misma cancion

el momento en el que la conexion es perfecta

y solo se rompre porque yo vuelo a otra dimension

a las apuradas corriendo para alcanzar la meta.

Bonita, baila mas calmada,

es tu consejo porque queres que mejore,

experientando el ser amada,

con la paz que decis que ore.

Evitando malentendidos, manteniendo el mismo plano

buscando un momento de paz,

Cuando me escribiste "te llamo" pero yo lei "te amo",

y toda nuestra historia paso rapaz.

Live music is more than air, it helps you to breath

 We decided to stay home,

to pause the busy life

to set in with what we become

to avoid any strife.

I melt myself in the soft big sofa

reading my sci-fi book,

while you gift me live music on fa,

that works on me like a hook.

You play Vivaldi, Pachabel and Ravel,

because "they are your favorites", you said...

"they were your father favorites too", you reveal

"and so the faves of thousand of others", I replied.

"Sometimes, I forget how funny you are...

sometimes", is your response return,

we both smile and connect in the air

the art we share at every surprising turn.

I don't want small rewards

 

You Can’t Always Want What You Like, my podcast said,

quiescence appeared in front of me.

I choose to engage in improving others lives, even when this dries me to the bone

I am not enjoying it when I am doing it, but I will enjoy after, type 2 reward

if there is no effort, type 1 fun, margaritas orgasm

that is how all relationships should be

just flow, enjoy, no pushing, no effort, no overthinking

just letting go and letting be.

I want deeper satisfaction, long-lasting effects

that will make me proud of what I did and what I am.

better every day, looking forward to more improvement...

Oh but sometimes distractions are soooo much fun :)

Sleeping with the love of my life

 I sleep next to the person I love,

the person next to me is the person 

I have been dreaming to meet my whole life.

My bed partner is sharing my dreams,

I am sharing my resting place with my teammate

this person wraps her arms

around me for a checkmate.

She has been there all this time, 

hoping I let her shine,

because as my friends repeated time after time

I am my own light shrine.

I am sleeping with the love of my life

I found her inside me and now she will always

walk with me like a wife

whose separate footpaths merged in the same main pathways.

You are sexy, elegant, smart, funny, gorgeous,

educated, caring, kind and full of compassion,

you can do better and be with someone glorious,

in a relationship exploding with passion.

Requiem time

 We dreamt of you, of your eyes, of your smile,

of your laugh filling our house,

of your soft skin and baby smell.

We cherished the pain because you were going to bring light,

the moments imagining you were the happiest,

but they were living in the future of right

but it was wrong to disregard the sapiens.

He is down, but he is not out (requiem for a loved one)

 Lovely memories are what you are now,

vacuum in space near me,

back to earth to feed the worms, thou

you fed my universe all the time.

Your white room that always welcomed me,

that was the place I called home

when I was an outsider,

that white room dressed in jasmine,

with the perfume that you got

because it was my favorite flower.

Sunny all year round,

inviting and velvet soft.

Your caring and love was always there

even if you didn't say it

it was in all the things you pushed me to do

for my own good,

all the challenges you guide me trough

all the time you challenge my destinations and desitions,

the times you thought that for a bad desition maker,

that one was a particularly good one.

Everything clean, neat, and slick ready to comfort me,

to be my home far from home.

To take me to new salsa places and dance don't caring about the "right" way,

because your smile was the right way.

Now, you are gone, forever,

you are down, but not out.

The jasmine perfume will always bring you back,

white will bring you back,

delicious coffee and well set up dinner tables will bring you back,

actually, the list is infinite, I just had ice cream and remembered our last one.

Your last advice will guide me, as the memory of those intense eyes

wishing the best for me, asking me

"So, what is your plan? You are a force of nature, not a leaf in the wind"

the voice in my head doesn't have your sound anymore,

you are a mental phantom.