Resilience

When I did what I wanted,
defying the rules and even hurting people I cared about,
I felt free, I felt powerful and motivated,
I was in a total mindset of being without.

When I did what I wanted,
and kissed you and followed you wondering about,
I was warm, I was happy again, I felt loved,
and then. the storm reached out.

The momentary happiness had to be paid and the end,
All the freedom I soaked turned me into a sellout
Was I a hypocrite? Telling people how to be loved
why and how to do the right thing and don't break out

Or was I just evolving and changing for a better friend?
I only knew I wanted to chase you and hangout
because when I did what others wanted
when I followed the rules of the social layout
I was not being me, I was just surfing the waves that melted.

I have to be resilient to face what I created for myself,
when I took the decisions to do what I wanted,
even if those actions hurt people I loved,
because I couldn't fly with broken wings.

I walked on water to see you again,
and in the middle of it, I have drawn myself and my entourage.
Resilience is like a safe boat that will come to rescue us.