To block or not to block

 Yesterday Facebook sent me a memory feed

with photos of the amazing birthday gatherings, I organized for my ex,

so I went to message to send a Happy birthday message to him...

and to my surprise, I couldn't find him,

which means he blocked me.

I did not really care much about the "blocking",

 but I feel sad to know that he was soooo hurt

that he needed to delete me from his online living.

Not that I care much, but I told a friend

and he said that my ex also blocked him 

and others who connected him with me,

and that it was great because he was boring anyway (ROFL).

It just made me think about how little he valued me,

he said constantly that he was so proud and grateful to be with me

because of ALL my amazing features (SMH)

but I never really felt those words to be real.

So, if you really value a person would you delete the only way of knowing how they are doing?

This is the second time I got blocked this year

an insane and aggressive/depressive book club organizer

blocked me when I told her she was impolite and I was scared to voice my opinion...

It just made me rethink how angry/upset/sad/hurt or even scared to be hurt

people can be in order to block another person.

Don't give me wrong, I have no intention or need to see these people,

I was with them because I was sorry for them,

and I have the need to help people even if they are not good for me,

I am a bit happy that I don't have this baggage on my back anymore.

What annoys me if them now spreading lies and wrong memories,

after all the caring and amazing moments I gave them,

how can they be so evil to say bad things about this lovely angel?

The only truly negative thing they can say is "she doesn't want to be with me anymore",

anything else will be lies if what they told me originally was the truth,

they are just dissing like snakes.

In retrospection, I have blocked bullies and guys who were harassing me after public appearances, 

and 2 exes who kept trying to call and meet me after I broke up with them because I didn't want to be with them anymore... but it was a blocking due to harassment.

If we are here to help others, the aim of my life and we are in part the interactions and what we share with others...

if my motto is not let anyone leave your life without being better and happier...

Have I failed?

I guess so.