Laziness

laziness some call it procrastination, but it real laziness it is a feeling of continuing in the inertia of non moving it a feeling of being ok, knowing that thing can be better, but just the possibility of going wrong is enough to continue non moving it is awkward when you actually want to be lazy-less, but you are in your comfort zone, you are in bed, wrapped in your blankets. you just want to do nothing, like meditating but letting your mind run crazy through all the thing that you are suppossed to do. and then you transition from laziness to stress.

Meditations

and one after noon, around 8 pm, in a spring night that was starting, i found myself alone, some kind of sadness, some kind of relief, that noon I had had finish a duty that was killing me, indeed I hate when I have to do things that I do not want to do, like speak in public about science. at all my ages I was always waiting for more, expecting the magic event to happen, expecting the blue prince to arrive, the succeed also I worked for that, but when the effort was too heavy, I was always trying to place a white flag and put my arms back. always my friends and the occasional love gave me the courage to continue, sometimes my mother, she is really strongly pushing me to continue, actually sometimes she push me to do things that she did not want me to do, but I was needing to do. and in all the way, I was never alone. Some afternoons I finished in a park, with 3 bags containing all my stuff, like a homeless, not knowing where to go or what to do, I cried, I begged for help, and help arrived always. and then I was back in the track, back in life, doing, doing doing again, always thinking in what I want, and suspicions that was not what I was doing. at all ages I doubt

A Poem to feel

FELT i felt your heart beating with mine, i felt your breath in sync i felt our souls merging together i felt your eyes seeing inside of me seeing me, the real me, the naked me. i felt you absolutely, complete. I felt the energy collapsing together i felt your skin softener behind my touch i felt your dreams becoming reality i felt our goal being reach i felt the euro- latin passion losing the nationality i felt your dark eyes mirroring mines i felt you as you felt me. i felt the amazing connection i felt that we were one i felt 2 puzzle pieces binding in a perfect match i felt a completely new feeling I felt us alive, traveling in time and space. i felt intimacy, deep, strong and hard. I felt you and you felt me. but i don't feel you anymore.

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