This is a negative poem about being positive

 The shock of seeing two lines,

always followed by the eagerness to take a second test

to stay positive thinking it might be a false negative...

After 16 double lines, only one was single.

YAY for the efficiency of tests

and the evolution of science.

How to stay positive when all is negative,

your life will be destroyed from now on,

should you hide it?

no, you can't... too many people are involved

and will suffer the consequences,

but they might suffer even more if you share the news.

Meanwhile your mind is going down a rabbit hole

more and more messages showing support invade your world,

the missing phone calls number keeps adding,

the unread messages accumulate like sand after a sand storm.

This result is rain over flooded land,

you were already sick and in pain,

barely managing, and now more.

Why you? you have been the champion for being careful,

telling everybody to use protection,

not only to stay safe from the common viruses 

but for ALL the other diseases and problems you can get.

You were careful, always... well not always...

regrets for one night.

Now the ripple effect has started and you can't stop it,

so many people want to help in their own way,

even after you clearly communicated how they can help you.

Presents and roses arrive every day, more kind words, more I am here for you...

Your best friend asking you how are you gonna make this the best day so far?

Calma

 Con calma senorita,

repetis por segunda vez

la primera me llamaste bonita

tratando de hacerme sonreir, tal vez.

Respira profundo y disfruta esta segundo

Solo el ahora existe y es un presente

un regalo de los dos disfrutando el mundo

juntos en este presente.

El ahora en el que los dos escuchamos la misma cancion

el momento en el que la conexion es perfecta

y solo se rompre porque yo vuelo a otra dimension

a las apuradas corriendo para alcanzar la meta.

Bonita, baila mas calmada,

es tu consejo porque queres que mejore,

experientando el ser amada,

con la paz que decis que ore.

Evitando malentendidos, manteniendo el mismo plano

buscando un momento de paz,

Cuando me escribiste "te llamo" pero yo lei "te amo",

y toda nuestra historia paso rapaz.

Live music is more than air, it helps you to breath

 We decided to stay home,

to pause the busy life

to set in with what we become

to avoid any strife.

I melt myself in the soft big sofa

reading my sci-fi book,

while you gift me live music on fa,

that works on me like a hook.

You play Vivaldi, Pachabel and Ravel,

because "they are your favorites", you said...

"they were your father favorites too", you reveal

"and so the faves of thousand of others", I replied.

"Sometimes, I forget how funny you are...

sometimes", is your response return,

we both smile and connect in the air

the art we share at every surprising turn.

I don't want small rewards

 

You Can’t Always Want What You Like, my podcast said,

quiescence appeared in front of me.

I choose to engage in improving others lives, even when this dries me to the bone

I am not enjoying it when I am doing it, but I will enjoy after, type 2 reward

if there is no effort, type 1 fun, margaritas orgasm

that is how all relationships should be

just flow, enjoy, no pushing, no effort, no overthinking

just letting go and letting be.

I want deeper satisfaction, long-lasting effects

that will make me proud of what I did and what I am.

better every day, looking forward to more improvement...

Oh but sometimes distractions are soooo much fun :)