I blocked the entrance of my castle,
and I ran upstairs to the highest tower,
I admired life from here and it was great,
the blue skies, the rainbows and the green hills.
I didn't let anyone in, I blocked any possibility,
but there you were, trying again and again,
asking me to let you in,
to go for a test run.
it is not you, it is my past trauma,
it is not that I am scared of you hurting me,
It is more that I don't want to hurt anyone,
because I hurt the person I cared about the most,
and the wound is still fresh and bleeding.
You saw my clean face, without makeup,
with my huge pores, more prominent than my flat,
with old clothes and even sick,
and you still wanted me.
When I was hiding from the rest, and rejecting any attention,
you gently waited, and shared your warmth and kindness.
But I must advise you to proceed with caution.
