I don't believe in luck but I am lucky

Lucky
With a powerful and kind mother as a role model,
i can't feel less than lucky
even with a dead father and debts to hunt us
I had a very happy childhood
I was not aware of the challenges
I was in a happy bubble
full of toys and candy

I was taught that luck doesn't exist
that you forge your own path
not even a destiny
because destiny is linked with a predisposition
and there is only now and here
created by each one of us.

So I am grateful for the lack of luck

my ring

I like to play with my wedding band,
I do it all the time,
it helps to keep my hands occupy
in the weird event when I don't know what to do with them

I like my ring, and it is good i do
because I can't take it out...
and I don't mean because it means a lot for me
or because it is a promised and a love bon
literally, i can't take it out with out destroying it
or cutting my finger...

I have very very very small fingers,
somebody told me I had princess hands
I will say I have mini hands to be polite with myself


The ring has am interesting story
Indeed the engagement ring had to be returned to the jewelry store
because it was too big and they didn't have a smaller size...
furthermore, when my back then boyfriend proposed,
my answer was: I would say YES if the rings fits...
well, spoiler alert: it didn't
but i married him anyways.

In order to don't step on the stone twice,
or to buy the wrong ring size twice,
he proposed to make our ow rings!
we went to a fun DYS workshop
and in 3 hours we lear how to make rings
and hammer them... real hard
well, i was sooo afraid that mine would turn out
to be too big again,
that I didn't hammer enough and voila
the ring when in and never came out...

We can all do a handstand

fear has always dragged me down,
fear of highs,
fear of speed,
fear of danger,
fear to the unknown.

But my friends have been helping to move on,
to face the fears,
specially my strong Boricua doctor,
who took my hand and guide trough the magic mountain
who push me into a roller-coaster of fun...
who took me into a sling shoot to reach the sky
who allowed me to face my fears.


I am still fighting my fears,
in tricks and aerials,
my partner and friends support me,
and the support and sometimes push really makes go ahead,
although I will never get into a space ship and/or roller-coaster again
I am happy I did.

Now, I facing the upside down conundrum,
I am scared of hand stands,
don't laugh, it is pretty serious...
well, for me it is,
so go ahead and grim all you want.

My partner helped me step by step
to get my arms in a triangle,
to trust my core and my elbows,
to keep my balance
and shoot my legs up in the air,
to rush the blood into my head,
to learn that,
even if I was sure I was not able to do a hands stand,
with help and support,
we can all do a handstand


Also "danger is real,
fear is mental"
(Will Smith)

I don't have a free hand to hold a rubber duck

I don't have a free hand to hold a rubber duck,
when you are full, and they offer you more,
you just need to say now,
or you can just all go and get the new toy.

I prefer to keep my coffee and my croissant,
than taking your rubber duck.
it is FOMO at the extreme and then depression,
the best solution is to enjoy the now and what you have,
not compare with other and di your best
being grateful for your luck and your bad luck.

Habits

Every time we have a live changing event
we set up new habits,
We try very hard to stick to the good ones,
healthy habits should be easy to keep.

Then we got used to this "new" live
and then new habits will kick in
the unhealthy but fun ones
who took over the ones that we initially set up

It is like a feedback circle
of not following the habit that we know will be good for us
for the ones that are shinny and fun.

Amendments

Amendments
1. When in doubt be kind
2. Be impeccable with your word.
3. Don't take anything personally.
4. Don't make assumptions.
5. Always do your best.

6. Practice makes the master
7. Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier.
8. Do it now
9. Relax
10. Take a deep breath before letting anger win. Think before answering

11. Choose be happy
12. Meditation is the fit of the mind
13. Change what you can’t accept
14. You can make things fun
15. Be grateful
16. Imagine the pathway and the aim
17. Be the example
18. Don’t do to others what you don’t want them to do to you

Have you just...?

Every day more secrets are discovered,
more hidden treasures are showing their shinny shapes.
Every day of a life together is a new wonder,
more surprises that made us laugh.

Every day of wonders you appeared to be unfolding
and unwrapping like a multilayers onion.
I have asked you have you just did that or that other things?
Every day I asked this question about new things
more adventures to come.